I've been back to working full-time for almost a month now, and I am still struggling to find a balance. I am feeling pretty good about my role at work, and I am energized and excited for the year. I'm having some difficulties with time management at school, but I think well on my toes and know my job enough that I am able to compensate. However, I feel like I am totally failing at home...
Last week was a rough week. I wanted so badly to just be home with my princesses. Poor Princess Ruthie has been cutting teeth and missing mommy quite a bit. Princess Natalie is getting used to the ever-changing dynamics at day care, and she is the big girl that has to set the example for the others. I LOVE our daycare provider, but I HATE being away from my children every week day. Thankfully, Chris has been picking the girls up after school since it is on the way for him. He has been AMAZING!!!! Ever since we have been married, Chris has been working his tail off. We enjoy the nicer things in life, so he has always gone above and beyond to provide for us. Well, he finally decided to quit Best Buy, where he'd worked part time for 7 years. It was time for him to move on, but it had helped him feel more financially secure. Now he is at a new school this year, tutoring, and will starting assistant coaching girl's basketball next week. Soon enough, I will be back to doing everything myself until he gets home most nights at about 8pm. Not looking forward to it...I told him yesterday that I feel like I have been the slacker in the relationship lately. He has really stepped up, helping with the housework and supporting me in every way. He has been so kind and patient toward me, while I have been negative, impatient, grouchy, and not very nice to him at all. I REALLY owe him. He even reassured me yesterday when I was feeling badly about not doing as much around the house, that he didn't feel that I have been slacking at all. It is nice to know that when he isn't completely drained and exhausted from working 70+ hours a week, we actually make a pretty good team! He deals with the house stuff so I can enjoy the girls in the evenings. He gets how much I am missing them...
So, I am working on finding the right balance of being the best me I can be at work AND at home. Pray for me, that I can make the best out of a blessed, but not always ideal, situation. The Lord has never let me down...
